Life of the ordinary

AS 考完了 除了law这个科目没信心 其余的我觉得自己表现得不错吧 现在开始了A2的生活 开始严格自律 曾今我想过 干脆放弃学业 开始出外打拼 但有一个文凭还算是个保障 曾今我担忧拿到文凭后 找不到工作的话怎么办 但还是处理好眼前的事吧 所以现在我尽可能的充实自己 每天阅读报纸 掌握时事 阅读各种不同的书籍 开阔视野 学会投资,学会理财, 学会社会现实中的发展趋势 尝试不同的工作 累计经验 扩展人脉 当然学业和工作会兼顾 我想我不再是懵懵懂懂的女孩吧 我只有18岁 但我有抱负 有自己的期许 加油吧 卯足全力去成为你想要的人

离中学毕业的日子 已经一年了 这个年头确实让我成长不少 学院生活虽然不怎么精彩 不过还是遇到一群新朋友 当然也跟中学的朋友保持联络 怡颖要去新加坡实习了 一去就是半年 我跟慧的考试快要结束了 但随之而来的是更繁忙的课业生活 最近很少写部落格了,因为觉得没必要 生活也许让我失去了一部分的热忱 但我也在慢慢长大 世间真的过得太快了

Ugh law papers are finally over But i screwed up my paper 1 That damn essay really makes a lot of difference Paper 2 was ok though Ill just have to see what i get Expecting around B to C With that essay my A flew out of my hands Thats why maybe i have to retake it next June along with my A2 papers Because i need 3As to have a scholarship for my first year degree So it wouldn't hurt giving it another shot Shit ( im frustrated forgive me for my choice of words) Means that i have to work extra harder than before But its my life anyway And ill make sure its in my hands

Finally got back all of my mock exam results. Got a 67 for law, 78 for econs and 95 for math Im quite happy though, seeing my grades had improved The exam is at the start of October I have just a few weeks left to brush up I seriously have to allocate my time well. By the way, ive turned 18 this week Grateful for all the wishes, presents and blessings I finally can have an internet banking account Saves so much of time in transactions My savings from work has also surpassed 2k, To me its not an easy feat since i have to pay for my car loan and insurance every month That takes up half of my salary But at least im one step closer to my goal of reaching 10k savings And to be honest i frequently thought about him these few weeks He just comes into my mind suddenly Maybe its because we did not contact each other for so long And i seriously miss my secondary school Got to go back once in a while Random post ends here

Final mock考试已过 现在是revision period 然后就有三个星期的自修时间 就大考了 说说这个星期发生的事吧 星期二下午 跟朋友们在下一节课之前去吃午餐 结果下起了滂沱大雨 街道开始淹水,有约半个车胎的高度吧 我们没带雨伞,又不想迟到 穿的又是布织球鞋 结果没办法, 我们只好脱下鞋子,在大雨下赤脚前进 结果到了学院我都冷得发抖 加上当天已经有点微感冒 总觉得病情会加剧 那天真的很累, 上课到傍晚, 有病在身, 还被淋雨 等会又要去工作 那天回到家真的莫名其妙地留下几滴眼泪 可能那时真的觉得不开心 不过也有好事 数学考试我得了95分 Econs的试卷一我是在jan/feb intake 和我的march/april intake之中 考获最高分的人 可能这些对一般人来说没什么 但对我来说这一点点的成就足以让我激动 因为我知道我比任何人更没时间 因为我知道我必须比任何人努力 十倍,一百倍 所以很庆幸 累也好,不开心也好,埋怨过也好 我的努力有付出成果 所以让我更有动力去做得更好 Law就有待加油了 我会慢慢成长

At the Raya holiday, I spent a good afternoon with Jac and Hwei Chatting just like usual Nothing ever changed. Just that Jac starts her internship at December Hard to find a time that we can gather after this. August 12th is my final mock exam Next week in precise :P Felt that i had not done enough But ill try my best After mock exam will be the revision period And three weeks of study break Then its AS exam Life goes on as usual But its important to know what you want :)

There are so many people who ask if's in life Which leads to so much possibilities But somehow things happened so fast there wasn't even a chance to say 'if' Like what happened to MH17 Who knew that catastrophe would happen all of a sudden And its not once, its twice... If to me is a strange word You can explore yourself with it But you may also get indulged in it that you will get lost Afraid to try Afraid to fail Afraid to be hurt If only works if it comes with willngness I will try I will do my best I will succeed People who are willing to make the move will go far I try not to ask what im doing now, Is it right? I just have to pick up that little bit of courage And make a difference

做了数学 翻回一部旧的电影来看 心里的烦躁全都解除了 He's just not that into you 一直都是我喜欢的都市爱情电影 没浮夸的剧情, 每一个故事都贴近现实 反思着男女在爱情上的盲点和疑虑 Gigi是我很喜欢的角色 很可爱,很勇敢,很坚持 最喜欢的几句白是: I rather be like that than be you I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there too much But at least it means i still care You think you've won, because women are expendable to you? You may not get hurt but you never fall in love that way either You have not won, you're alone,Alex I may do a lot of stupid shit but i know im a lot closer to finding someone than you are. Gigi最后被Alex倒追, 不过立场还是很鲜明 但最后也在一起啦~ 真的,如果我成长了 我不介意奋不顾身, 受伤也好 至少我不后悔 爱自己很重要 清楚自己的立场是什么很重要 每一个人总会等到对的人 无需执着什么

刚才有一件事情搞清楚了 本应该释然了 结果收到你的信息 我真的开心不起来 我不懂你对我的兴趣从何开始 只是我觉得以你的条件可以去找更好的人 本来我就是酷酷的女生 也很直接 我以平静的语气回答你的问题 代表我当你只是点头之交 但被你讲成是女人味,成熟的魅力,喜欢我独立自主的感觉 老实说我会给你一个右勾拳 你认识我多久 你了解我多少 你看穿我了吗? 我不接受可以轻易说出喜欢的人 因为你在根本不了解我的前提下 而做出的结论 真的让我冷笑了一声 我对你 肯定没恋爱的怦然心动 别浪费自己的时间 你要找乐子 外面的女生多得是 我们的生活方式截然不同 根本就不能融合 还是去找一个适合你的女生吧 我不回你的信息 表明了我的态度 就是别烦我 这种芝麻绿豆的小事 我不想跟我的姐妹们倾诉 因为根本不值一提 所以在部落格发泄 以后部落格真的辛苦了 还得帮我清除这些垃圾情绪

我一路以来 都讨厌不清楚的东西 任何事情都一样 我自认不是最勤劳的人 但我有努力的自觉和行动 我也不是生活很规律的人 学业工作什么的乱七八糟 但我开始觉得焦躁 我不想再思考任何的事情, 只要不迷失,怎样都好 眼前的学业和工作 专心,踏实地做好它 现在我不想谈恋爱 因为我身心俱疲 我不想再为自己增添烦恼 在我变得更强之前 我绝对不会抱持着恋爱的想法 因为我还太年轻 太不成熟 太不知所措 我真的没什么好,真的 别浪费你的时间在我身上

我现在才知道 自尊心是多么可怕 现在我正忙里偷闲 抒发不安的情绪 法律是一门知识 却很复杂,必须自行摸索,探讨,剖析 星期五时有突击测验 而我自认的确没准备好 结果才写一面半的纸 Mr pradeep说我们没希望 我真的莫名的不甘心 因为我在班上(目前)是在法律考试上考得最好的人 被他那么说,我怎能不奋斗 他说考试就是把所有的东西呕出来写 我拒绝死背,因为我相信mr sara的话 答案中必须有独立的见解,深入的分析,而不是一味地把资料写进去 所以为了写出我心目中理想的作文，我拒绝采用他的资料 自行上网阅读与搜寻相关论文,扩充知识 只是human rights 这一课真的很长, 有 14项article必须背,现阶段我正在研究一篇500页的论文 而我现在真正深入了解的article只有两个 简直是在自寻烦恼 星期一有随堂测验,他叫我们做好准备 我真的很害怕,自己的努力不被认同,付诸东流 因为我就是要完美,就是要与众不同 但真正的大考验在于10月的考试,在还有3个月的情况下我真的不得不咬紧牙关了 加油吧 想做一个与众不同的人没什么错

最近思考很多事情 短期的规划,长期的规划 学业,家庭,友情,事业 补习中心已经有一群我放心不下的孩子们 听到他们说上我的课很开心, 心里暖暖的 才意识到教育的魅力何在 学业目前在自我提升的状态 要做的事情还有很多 如果说 我不自强 就没有前进的条件 如果说 我不努力 就绝对没有成功的资格 如果说 我跌倒,却不愿意爬起来 就注定是一个失败者 调整好心态后, 我会对自己说一声加油 去捉紧那一点点的可能

Ok,1st assessment is almost over just with my maths exam. My maths teacher finished the paper 1 syllabus in 2 months Now we're starting statistics Though she's fast but i still like maths because I managed to finish the crazy amount of homework she gives us every time. LOL currently im lazy to finish my maths Because ive drawn 7 graphs and i wanted to give myself a rest I like law too, Mr Sara finished Human Rights with us Which im going to study again this weekend Currently im slacking myself But not too long ill be in a more serious mode Seriously with work and studies. I can't find the time to do something i want Like reading books, from a variety of topics such as philosophy, war, crime, social ethnics, business, marketing has always been my goal. Because reading, especially reading classics, improves yourself I always love desserts. It was always been my dream to search kl for every dessert place and try it out But sadly i don't have the time to do...

郭皓盈,你最近怎么了 可以为一件小事生气 可以为一件小事哭 你的理智去了哪 你的情绪管理去了哪 妈妈不在家 家里的大事小事都自己管理 才不到几天就大动肝火 你就那么差吗? 家里的两个男人 如出一撤 最可怕的情绪 莫过于感到死心 我累了 我真的疲倦了 我真的哭了 爸已经是如此的不负责任, 你也是这样吗? 你不知道我明天有重要的考试 算了 你知道我晚上有做工 却选择不通知我,通过婆婆的口要我帮你做家务 我已经没什么时间温习,我晚上还要做工,你在这个时候却加重我的负担 选择跟朋友出去逛街吃饭 我不奢望你明白我现在的处境, 我只求你不要替我增添麻烦 有那么难吗? 明明是端午节, 你跟朋友出去吃饭 也不要回来吃婆婆煮的饭菜 好吧 我表示不满 你只发来一封道歉的信息 说明天替我做家务 但隔天我6点回到家 什么也没开始 你只是在房间睡午觉 我默默拿起扫把, 完成我的任务 你也若无其事,只字不提 你说我小器,小心眼也罢, 但你这样小小的承诺也做不到 我只有心灰意冷 晚上8点,我照旧去做工, 我真的不想跟你讲话. 妈妈很强, 我一直都知道 她那么多年来不知是如何过来的 而我却为这一点一点小小的事情不快乐 真的很没用 我真的累了 疲倦了 空了 我哭完后, 我会跟我自己说我不会再依赖你们俩 因为家人都已如此 谈什么互相扶持 我哭完后, 我会跟自己说 做个更坚强的人 不要再为你们流泪

我承认 有些时候 自己会莫名的不快乐 大多数是跟家人有关系 我不喜欢得过且过的人 尤其是在做一件事情 根本没尽力 却在事情搞砸后自称后悔的人 我实在无法接受 如果我不快乐 也不会怎样 因为人生中有那么多真实事情必须处理 不好好活在当下, 难道要一直自怨自艾吗 至少我找到处理情绪的模式吧 学业与工作都已经够繁忙了 现在星期一至星期五晚上都在做工 星期六就全心全意读书 也渐渐适应了 只是最近少跟朋友联络了 大家都各忙各的 我会努力的 希望你们都过得好, 以后的聚会我都一定会出席

Before doing my homework I decided to blog Recent updates of life. Firstly, i finally passed my driving test As in FINALLY Ill have less a thing to worry Secondly, law is definitely not an easy subject Especially when my writing speed is so slow We're required to write 3 essays in one and a half our 30 minutes for each essay, 3 pages each DA HELL Constantly practicing at home To write 3 pages within 30 minutes My best record now is just 2 and a half pages Better buck up Thirdly, always balancing my salary and expenditure in my brain My dream is to save up to my first 10k But somehow there are unexpected situations where you have to spend money AS exam in October Targeting straight As Racing with time Go go go!

太久没靠写部落格抒发情绪 平常都靠听歌 已经一个月了,适应了学院生活 有时会莫名地怠惰 但是我还是会自律, 做我该做的事 我读书的时间相对的比别人少 但在同样的起跑点上我们不能为自己找藉口 我依然很努力 去抓紧那一点的可能 那可能是对自己的一个交待 我不想试图去证明什么 而是做好自己的本分, 尽力而为, 不留遗憾 时间不曾停留 而人不能表现不成熟 只有默默耕耘, 保持着良好的心态 才能获得成功 加油吧,郭皓盈 :)

Its such a long time I didn't update my blog So ill be brief Yeah almost one month ive been in college Adapting to studies and work now Just realized there's not much time left for my AS exam Law is quite an interesting subject Though i have to spend 4 hours+ to understand every particular case and detail in a chapter ( i make my own notes) I feel a sense of satisfaction getting to really understand it and not just a general picture Maths is ok ( for now) i love doing exercises And for economics though i have the basic but i feel that im not really into it yet. And we formed a gang in class! Me, Poh Yee, Haamsaveni, Vivian, Jie Le, Yeong Ni, Raymond, Justin and some others Haha lazy to introduce them Then i had gatherings with my besties and 5B gang Felt great and we literally gossiped about everything as usual Although life now is tired sometimes I really felt its worth it Every time my saving increases I felt that im closer to my dream Now im doing what i w...

开学了两个星期, 生活还算过得去 只是星期二真的很累 吃了午餐上法律课真的不是明智的安排 眼皮真的会很沉重 回到家休息一阵就要去教补习 10点回来 整理书包,做了运动,约11点就上床睡觉 只有星期二很累,没时间做功课 不然我还是有尽自己的本分 周末时都会把功课完成,温习,在教师讲解之前学习新的课程 我很喜欢数学 所以就算有多难明白我都会慢慢把它消化 然后拼命做练习 我也发现有哪些人是我融不进去的 最近看了一个名为同理心的短片 所以我也尝试不去批评任何人 纵使我不喜欢他们做事的风格 不过还好我遇见宝怡 我有预感,她会是我这五年的大学生涯中不可或缺的同桌,伙伴与姐妹 就这样吧 然后senior Derrick要去印度求学了 祝他一路顺风,马到功成 :)

My brother failed to maintain his scholarship My mum had to pay 3k for his final semester. I felt disappointed with my brother actually He knows that money is a big issue for our family And yet he didn't work hard enough and got himself into this state Somehow i was not as surprised as i expected Because maybe i knew this would happen On unspoken terms, somehow it would always be me to handle everything on my own I chose to work because i wanted to ease my mum's burden and pay all the fees by myself And somehow i had to start saving till 30k to finish my degree by myself Because i envisaged that the money left in my family would be used to pay my brother's university fees. My brother always claimed that he would work hard Yet he disappointed me, disappointed my mum I already faced the fact that men in my family were not trustworthy at all My dad, my brother, they're the same. Im not being negative, somehow im seriously and practically clear in mind But...

Ok so I have started life in college I expected myself to be more preserved, more anti social But i turned up to be one of the noisiest in class at just the 2nd day :P That's because I met an outgoing girl Poh Yee who's from Selayang And our duo 'attacked' half of the class into knowing us haha damn Literally a gang is slowly forming We haven't get to know all of the classmates though There's more to come :P Yeah its just 3 days But i managed to do everything on my own Im quite independent in travelling to and fro from college Just that with Poh Yee and her two friends waiting for the ktm at the same station from now on is quite comforting to be honest Of course in just 3 days You can't quite find someone you can rely your heart on But hey im there for 5 years im bound to find at least one people i can divulge my feelings to Though of course i have my friends of 5B who gives me motivation, support and a strong bond of trust :) Im quite su...

好吧,明天就要开学了 这不是伤心的话,哈哈 我反而有点期待,也带着早已萌芽的决心去面对一切未知数. 法律真的很难读 我的学长学姐们真的付出了很大的努力才能顺利地毕业, 我不知道,单靠决心和努力就能考到好成绩. 但是电影-激战有一句说得很好 怕了,你就输了. 现阶段,慢慢地找回自己的节奏, 找回自己的热血干劲 我又开始做数学了 一直做练习,第一本簿子给我用完了 时间不等人,而我知道自己必须比别人付出更大的努力 我一直想要维持自己的自主性 我不想随波逐流, 变得不像我自己 所以我最喜欢的乐团,五月天,让我一直记住这首歌-倔强: 当 我和世界不一样 那就让我不一样 坚持对我来说 就是以钢克钢 我 如果对自己妥协 如果对自己说谎 即使别人原谅 我也不能原谅 是的,在学习的过程中 我要成为一个更好的人 也要一直做自己 要一直加油! 吼!!!!!

Im glad to know that my friends who were down recently managed to pull themselves up and get on with life. Yeah pre u is much much important than SPM Saw my friends' blogs Im happy that they are able to think positively Anyhow its all part and parcel of life. I just want to say you guys did a really really great job (hugs) All those activities, events and the pressure by parents, Yet you guys still manage to score with flying colours. Be proud of yourself, be proud of what you achieved And i sincerely wish you guys all the best in upcoming life. We are one step closer to our dreams. Just wing it!

昨天是悲喜交加的一天 愤怒,伤心,不满的情绪围绕在空气中 很多人在英文,道德,华语惨遭滑铁卢,拿了B+ 我没去安慰我认识的朋友, 因为我觉得以我的立场不适合 也知道有些事情需要时间去冲淡一切. 但我不禁想问, 那张纸真的有那么重要吗? 10A1B, 9A1B的成绩不好吗? 你们不是尽力了吗? 有些人的自尊心碎了一地 有些人不甘心 但我看到了两个跟我拥有一样心境的人(昌熙不谈:P) 第一个人,超帅气的Jesmine 她可厉害了,9A1B,国语没能拿甲 但她A+比我多,英文跟华语都拿A+!!!!! 超强,而且她知道她的成绩高兴得蹦蹦跳跳,还跟我们抱怨说她的妈妈不信她拿到如此好的成绩哈哈哈哈哈哈 但是,从她身上看得出,这是一个人如何面对挫折的心态. 她帅气十足的说:哭了A会回来咩 所以说,这是个人的问题吧.有些人把期望定得很高,高不是错,错的是当一切不如你期望的时候,你选择不正视自己的问题,怨批改老师,怨制度. 第二个人,平易近人的易珊 我看了她的部落格后 我会心一笑 她跟我的处境很像, 但是易珊最厉害的地方是她可以从容面对一切. 比起哭天抢地,喊上诉的人,她的心态很棒 心态才是最重要的,其他的就算多好也没用 回到成绩这回事, 你说我有点不开心吗? 的确有,但我也看开了. 因为SPM除了努力,还得靠临场表现和一份运气 对于那些英文没拿到甲这件事, 虽然我过后的话有点不中听,也有点欠打,不过我还是要说 你们不相信自己的英文程度只是乙等,失望,哭泣,喊上诉 但我想质疑你们努力的程度真的值得甲等吗? 先说我的故事 我妈从我6岁时送我去修读英文基础班. 这课程我用了8年的时间完成,直到我15岁时才正式完成. 听好了,是8年 而这个课程完成后我也持续阅读,扩充我的知识和辞海,因为我知道学语文是没止境的,我们要努力去汲取更多的知识去充实自己,直到SPM 结果我只得了A,不是A+ 比起你们那些自以为是的有一阵没一阵的努力,还要哭,还要上诉 那我花了10年的努力,是不是要去做更震惊的事? 我承认我没拿A+有点失望,因为感到有点对不起妈妈的苦心,但我没哭 我隐隐约约知道是哪里出了问题 庆幸的是,我的GCE是1A，这是最好的证明 GCE只看英文试卷一,也就是作文的部分 这个1A,证明了我扎实...

Im relieved, I managed to obtain straight As for SPM 5A+ 3A 2A- There were ups and downs though Firstly, Mr Leong said only 33 of us scored straight As, which was less than last year (37 people) I think all of us did our best though And of course im happy that im one of the 33. :) Secondly, some of my friends shed tears of disappointment due to their results. My bestie Hwei cried and she went home with her mum before i even have the time to console her  You did your best dear, after a year no one would care what you got for SPM And on the contrary, another sister of mine Miss Jaclyn cried due to tears of joy. She expected herself to get 5As  but instead she got 9As I rolled my eyes of disbelief ( she won't get only 5As ok?) but congrats babe. Your hard work paid off. Thirdly, im disappointed with myself ( a bit) I only got an A for my English damn damn damn And the funny part was i got a 1A for my GCE, Ok so the Malaysian teachers don't app...

Life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you'll get. 你永远不知道你会吃到什么口味的巧克力 人生也一样. 现实的生活让我与朋友们有不一样的经历. 而我在这样的生活中被逼,也必须成长. 我不会抱怨什么,我觉得我有这样的经历,也许是冥冥之中注定。 就像排列组合的题目,答案在问题形成之前已经注定好不是吗? 什么事情都是这样 所有的答案在形成之前 就已经清楚刻印在每个人的脑海里 但我承认我会有迷惘的时候 有时简单的事情我都拿不定主意. A levels 该拿三个还是四个科目 我都必须征询意见 很少人知道我现在必须面对的是什么 他们也没必要知道啊,这是我的人生,又不是他们的 他们好意地劝我,辞掉我的工作,专注于学业,就拿四科吧 我就苦笑了,不可能 我与他们不一样 有稳定的经济基础,烦恼什么的,大部分是繁重的课业和面对一群自我感觉良好的人类. 但我必须承受经济这一块 一个不负责任的爸爸利用妈妈的名义赌博负债几十万 他没有工作,妈妈得用她每个月的薪水替他还债, 剩下的费用是给我公公,婆婆和外婆的家用,与生活费 我不至于像言情小说的主角们那样凄惨, 生活还算过得去, 但我们仅剩六万的余款,根本不足以供完我和哥哥上大学 我很心疼妈,纵使我知道她不支持我的决定,我不会怪她 因为她肩膀上所承受的远比任何人沉重 而如此渺小,无能为力的我, 想为我自己的人生负责任 靠着每个月教补习的480 日积月累足够我自已应付午餐,参考书和考试费用 自己去规划,自己去理财 不再依赖妈妈每个星期给零用钱. 而经过深思熟虑, 我还是决定在A level只拿三科 这样我能在学业与工作中取得一个平衡吧. 别人说, 拿四科,留一条后路给自己 但你必须全心全意 我选择了工作,所以我自认不可能全心全意去读四科 真抱歉,我这个人就是死脑筋 我没打算留什么后路, 我做事情从不喜欢灰色地带, 既然我自己断送后路,当然就是要有无可救药的傻劲去尽力考好那三科 Do or Don't 我选择了Do,所以我会拼命去做好它 后悔是我自己的事,人生也是我的,我自己负责 就这样. 当然也祈祷星期四能又一个漂亮的成绩单 :)...

Life was never easy. But its good to know that my besties would always be my side. I dislike arguments, who does? Its just a bit sad really. Knowing that your mum from deep down never supported you of what you're doing. But hey, she didn't oppose right? Maybe i should be grateful for that Its my decision really, and ill be responsible for it. Ill just have to work hard, knock the barriers aside and do all i can ( haha, like its easy! Nooooo) Everything will eventually be alright. But just to say: I am who i am I can fall down painfully, cry out loudly, scream and shout But one of my greatest strengths is to keep on going And pull it through :)

最近思绪有点乱 在这里想稍微地整理一下 最近,我被告白了 我没有想炫耀的意思 只是通过这次 我开始反思我与人相处的方式 和自己情感上的期望和矛盾点 我承认自己是个理性多过感性的人 在与人相处的时候 我想保持自然的节奏 最重要的是要达成彼此之间的尊重 刀大的访谈中有说道: 我们太习惯用鼓励的语气跟另一个状态不佳的人相处 例如鼓励她好好读书就可以出头天,或鼓励她只要有心就可以脱胎换骨之类的 是很正面,但往往是一种扭曲的同情 不是说你不善良,同情心也很重要 只是在同情,鼓励之外，实际上， 很可能对方仅仅是需要陪伴,需要再普通不过的相处. 我不能同意更多 普通地活着很重要 人与人之间无关利害地,有一阵没一阵地相处,是我心中很大的稳定力量 我跟那两个傻逼是如此,跟5B班那群二货也是如此 在whatsapp里乱七八糟的对话,偶尔有人兴致勃勃地大聊别人的八卦 我们没见面,就算见面也只会瞎闹一通,尽毁之前好不容易下定决心要建立的形象. 那么平凡,却很动人,让人会心一笑 :) 沛珍跟我说,我是个正直的人 从不会利用别人的性格占便宜, 说起来,也算是我的原则之一吧.我承认自己很介意别人对我的看法 因为我希望彼此能通过了解对方而达成共识 我想我会一直持续地保持这样的相处方式吧 毕竟我也是个遇到知音就会不顾形象的人啊(笑) 我被告白后 就去洗澡 没错,因为那时候我可以异常地冷静 我回想我们之间的关系 我们是朋友,而我在他心目中占据了算是重要的位置(我知道我厚脸皮,好吗) 在那15分钟里,足够让我得出一个结论 我只需问我的心,可以吗? 它回答不 不喜欢就不喜欢 不要留一丝暧昧 不要浪费别人的时间 不要利用别人对自己的感情去伤害他 而这次的事件 让我不得不问我对自己的感情有何期许 之前,我从没考虑过,就算有也是很敷衍的答案 因为我的性格有点男性化,在中学都与男生做哥儿们,听他们跟女友相处的烦恼 一面大骂,一面给他们意见 所以也没谈恋爱,没对人心动 他们都说我是女强人,跟我谈恋爱也要很强才行 倒不是 这里,我吸进氧气和勇气, 大声地说 我希望自己可以找到一起为梦想奋斗的人 一定会陪伴在我身边的人 包容我白目的人 这是我的期许 然后，谢谢你喜欢上这样的我 我们依然还是朋友 ...

我喜欢自己努力奋斗的时候 我喜欢自己不顾矜持疯狂的时候 我喜欢自己有莫名的勇气去尝试任何事的时候 我喜欢自己穿上品味服饰的时候 我喜欢自己跟不同的人认识的时候 刀大在他的小说访谈里, 说了一段让我非常同意的话, 一个人最大的寂寞,是无法喜欢自己 自己跟自己疏离,对自己陌生,对自己所选择的人生无法给予正面的评价,是很悲伤的。 至少,我喜欢自己. 冷静的我,白目的我,有一股傻劲的我 我想,无论过怎样的人生,都要学会爱自己,照顾自己的情绪. 还未真正面临考验的我,也许以后的生活会让我吃不消 不过我相信就算很累,我还是会觉得很爽,因为我往自己的目标前进 而今天的你,喜欢自己吗? :)

Yeah that's the college ill be going to Since ive decided to study law, So i have to choose the prestigious colleges which specify in this area. So there's the longtime debate about ATC and BAC ( Brickfields Asia College ) But i think both are good in their own ways. But i chose ATC due to several reasons. 1) Scholarships Really, due to my family's economy problem, i have to choose the college which offers cheaper fees. If i get 9As in my SPM ( hopefully please) , i get a 100% scholarship for my A level course fee, ( its confirmed, stated on their website) But im not sure if I can get a scholarship from BAC, they have no specific terms, and i cant take that risk. ATC will be good for me. (Y) Plus i will continue to work part time and study at the same time when i go to college. I have to earn my own pocket money for food, textbooks and examination fees. Its my decision to ease my mother's burden. 2) Distance Haha actually there's no difference. To take ...

So yesterday was the Chinese and Western Valentine's Day coincidentially. Yeah its quite meaningful I went back to SMKKB yesterday Met up with teachers and juniors, sweet! And my Chinese society juniors held the caligraphy competition on that day And they set up a stall selling chocolates, great idea! I got a free chocolate by Yewa by the way :D ( thanks dear) And i was called by Puan Lim to join in the competition as well. Oops, i have not picked up a 毛笔for two years man. Then Shao Ren came. Everyone basically ignored him and thought that he was a member because he was wearing our society shirt. LOL i was laughing out loud when i saw my juniors expression when they recognized Shao Ren Anyway its great to meet up with these guys. The grass painting on my classroom is still there. Great memories. And my boss at the tuition center said that she would give me another two classes to teach, which means a pay rise in my salary :D Great day, ill be coming back again when the ...

这是一个乱七八糟的帖子,你看不懂可别怪我 最近真的很废 变得非常懒散 大热天,懒洋洋地做着琐碎的事情 西班牙文我最近没跟进了 但倒是能说几句简单的话 明天会去听undang 老实说学车这件事我根本没兴致 算了,每个星期二和星期四的晚上我却过得很开心 教补习除了尽量不要误人子弟之外,我看不出个中的弊端 看着那一群嘻嘻哈哈该死的中学生,心情特好 老板娘威胁他们的方式也挺幽默的,噗 然后,看中国选秀节目 从我是歌手的节目中,为邓紫棋的表演着迷 从中国好歌曲的节目中,喜欢上明天不上班这个叛逆,中肯的歌曲,当然还有很多首好歌 然后,看刀大的小说 等一个人咖啡这本小说我百看不腻 思荧的性格我很喜欢 严格来说这本书的每个人物我都喜欢 这个故事即将拍成电影 饰演思荧和阿拓的新人我觉得很适合 布鲁斯的样子真的很憨,演阿拓这个大笨蛋,大暖男真的很适合 下次再好好介绍这本书,和刀大超感动的作品吧 就这样莫名其妙地结束

好的,在槟城度过了愉快的三天后, 就已经被邀约去聚会. LOL 那天是初四, 早上去那个傻婆-怡颖的家拜年(实际上是聊八卦） 跟她在房间的地板上彼此更新近况, 也为彼此做的白目事情互瞪 也为我提出没品的奸计哈哈大笑. 然后联手把沛珍的电话炸爆吵醒她. 是的,我们在一起就是会如此的放肆. 我,怡颖,秀慧=三剑客 我们都是很独立的存在,但一见面话就停不了,形象和矜持也不顾了哈哈 中学的友谊果然是可靠的,因为我们很自然地保持着联系,继续维持着所谓的羁绊. 还没完呢 晚上7点-我,秀慧与5B共患难的好友们Brian,Jesmine和毅晨相约吃火锅,然后到jesmine家开赌 我真的,真的,真的很喜欢我们在一起的感觉. 我不会害怕或介意我们任何一个人改变,因为我知道真实的人生中我们有很多事情必须处理,岁月也许会无形地改变我们. 说也奇怪,我们才两个月没见,好像隔了很久. 不过我们还是很搞笑,彼此互酸的功力没退步. 秀慧还是一样傻 毅晨还是一样邪恶 Brian还是一样自恋 Jesmine还是一样无可救药地自信 今天的聚会都很开心. 我幻想,我期待,下一次美好的聚会都有你们的陪伴. 新年快乐! 也是时候回学校一趟了

I said i would write about my first job after it ends, so here goes:MACEE stands for Malaysian American Comittee Educational Exchange And im VERY VERY GLAD to be a part of it. Im working as an assistant to teach Americans (ETA) basic BM for use in conversation. The ETAs will live for ten months at our country. Most of them are graduates aged between 22-25. During this period, they will be going to schools in rural areas to assist in teaching English. The class was held for 9 days, and it was a great experience!!!! Firstly, the classes are held at the Royale Chulan Hotel at the city of KL Holy, the hotel was huge with staff smiling at you everywhere. I felt that it was a whole new world to me. Yeah i get to know a lot of people too, especially my colleagues. They are damn awesome.Well i recommended my senior seng yi into the job and he works as an assistant as well. I know him already, so i won't write about him :P Kalis- she's one of the facilitators of the program an...

Ok i had to admit i was quite lame. I just spent the first three days of working life and i felt ill. = = Yeah luckily it wasnt a fever or something, my head just felt heavy. But where im working now, ive met a lot of great colleagues with interesting stories. Though i must say that KL is really not my place. Horrible traffic, merchandise with prices i found that i would never want to afford and people with cold attitudes. Not something that you will find near kepong or my area. The only one good thing i felt was the public transport. I love it because its cheap and convenient if you are not in a rush of time. ( im quite independent going back home on my own now) I walked to the monorail within 10 minutes, switched to ktm at kl sentral and got back to kepong ktm. Though the journey took an hour at least, it was worth it and it only costs me rm3.80 But really i feel a sense of experiencing life, Now i have to speak English in every work of mine. Still not used to it but i can...

Im working three jobs at january, holy But ill earn a good salary. Finally i found a long term part time job Which means ill still be working after enrolling for college Its a great feeling when you can earn your own pocket money :D In my opinion, its great experiencing something new, exploring yourself in these three months rather than studying so early. Though part of it was my parents could not spend money for my first semester. I rather wait for my actual results and get a scholarship My family is going through hard times, especially my mum. So im going to adapt a working life and juggle with my studies to ease my mum's burden. Just a part of my life now, im going write about my debate memories next :)

隔了超久!!都2014年了. 在此把我对朋友的回忆阐述完吧. 俊傧: 别人对他的关注只在于他的红头发啦. (喂 哈哈,开玩笑啦.他是一个特别的朋友. 总把欢笑带给大家 源头并不是他很刻意的搞笑,而是他做的糗事真的让我们忍俊不禁xD 我跟他有一份默契.好朋友的默契. 只是他交了女友后,我承认我是有点不爽他啦. 因为他的确有偏向重色轻友的趋势. 而我们这一群朋友则是很有默契地为他随时随地保留一个空位. 说真的,有时候我也在想自己干嘛那么小器，(虽然我没显示出来)我想他也应该很难做吧. Anyway,我真心祝福他的恋情,但也希望条水别老是那么优柔寡断。 无论如何,兄弟,你心里有我们就好了,别的话我不说,心知就好. Jonathan: 哼,我觉得他从外星球回来, 不过我也能跟他一起讲没营养的话就是了. 他竟然给我看他喜欢的A片女星,然后他也不避忌地跟我说谁谁谁很丑,跟我说谁谁谁得部位很正(各位,儿童不宜,别做遐想) 他很诚实,无厘头地诚实. 虽然我会给他一个鄙视的眼神(哈哈),但他还是会很滔滔不绝地讲他的道理. 你可以想像那种画面是多么搞笑xD 我觉得他是一个很棒的朋友,如果你跟他成为好朋友,他会完完全全把他的本性露出来,毫不掩饰(要掩饰也没用,我都知道了,小妹妹们别被他骗了哈哈) 一个在你面前尽情毁灭形象的朋友,实属难得啊(这是吐槽吗,哈哈) 总之祝他前途似锦.兄弟,定力要加强哦.(笑 宏哲: 如果跟我粗枝大叶的形象比起来,那他跟我是完全相反的类型. 数学有负负得正的道理,而我们两个截然不同的性格可以那么合拍,也有一定的原因. 我会给他冠上好男人的称号,因为他比一般男生更细心. 如果我要比喻我们的关系,我会用无形的羁绊 我不会忘记宏哲为我做的事 那一瞬间的感动和眼眶中凝聚的泪水都很真实. 正当我还在为一个友谊而感到黯然时,他让我发现原来身边还有那么多值得我去珍惜的人。 我对他只有万分的感谢,还是感谢. 我会用真心去祝福他勇敢追梦,最后,谢谢你. 我不会忘记那十个字的. 朋友篇圆满结束 :)