Life of the ordinary

I really don't have anything to do! I started playing Pokemon again,bet my battling skills are better than any boys in my age.My mom's coming home today, so I guess my onlining time is limited,Feel free to challenge me in an online pokemon battle! It's so boring these days.

We've been given 3 days off because of Deepavali, plus Saturday and Sunday, it's a total of 5 days.I really don't know what to do besides facebooking , watching tv, playing games and solving add maths. But I guess the fifth formers are studying hard for their SPM. They must be really stressed out and struggling to remember all the facts, equations and solutions. Their exams will start at the 14th of November, good luck to all of you! And half of our class are going to Pulau Langkawi this Sunday night. Have a good trip! Im not going, but i have to come to school. Oh well, just have to get on with life. I really have to consider something else to do, or not ill be bored to death and you all will have to visit my grave. ( ps: just joking!)

Yeah, i skipped school today, so i woke up at 9am rather than my usual 5.30am. But I still feel sleepy, i must be a pig. =D Automatically, i opened the Add Maths reference book and started to solve questions after my breakfast. I wonder why I was so hardworking. Anyway, Im still on the chapter of Quadratic Functions. And seriously, I have already sketched 10 questions of graphs,its driving me crazy! Jaclyn said i was smart so i don't need tution. What a major mistake. I am learning this by myself, but i need lots and lots of practice so i can grasp the multi questions! Im not that smart, i need whole lots of concentration , thinking and practice to solve all of these! Add Maths is the worst subject ive ever encountered after Sejarah. Gambateh! I have to go on, im not going to give in just because of these textbook questions!

Haha, went out with those 4 girls at Saturday to the Curve. Pei Zhen could not come, awwwwww.Haha, the most funny thing was when we were dining at Sakae Sushi. We're noob, i guess, we didn't know how to use the Ipad and had to ask for a menu =D. Anyway,my lunch cost RM30! Haiz, I have to start saving again ><.My mum went to Jakarta, Indonesia, and Im cooped up in my house doing that DAMN Add Maths! I finished Chapter 2, now moving on to Chapter 3-Quadratic Functions.What a nightmare, so many steps, so many concepts, so many types of questions.WTF! Who in the hell made this kind of difficult Maths? What an asshole!

1st, Im glad that i can skip school cuz most of my classmates ( including me) went to Cheras as a supporter for our school choir team who made into the finals of the National Choir Competition. Most of the teams sent shivers down my spines, the sopranos were singing sooooooooooo high! A major breakdown occured as our school team finished performing the 1st song. The people who organized were so lame! But our school team performed up to standard and managed to bring the 2nd prize home. Woots! Although they did not manage to continue their feat ( they won 1st last year) this year, but they really did their best, Cheer up, guys! You're still one of the best. The 1st prize went to Selangor, and 3rd went to Sabah.Gambateh to SMKKB choir, you can get the 1st prize back next year!

终于,选科的时候到了.我已经决定选择文科,因为我的兴趣是在生意和经济科.我对理科没兴趣.我很肯定我将来从事的工与理科无关.我不能勉强自己去做我不喜欢的事情.我也毫不犹豫地报考华文,但是有些同学的举动和决定却让我大失所望. 他们竟然放弃报考华文科. 我心里在想着,这些人真傻,我替他们感到悲哀.但是以一个客观的角度去想,每个人都有自由选择的权利.无论他们因什么理由而放弃报考华文,这是他们的决定.他们也会承担一切的责任.但是,我个人认为,他们做了错误的决定.你们不是黄皮肤的东方人吗? 你们身上留着的不是华人的血吗?华文不是你们的母语吗? 华文是我们民族的根.它是一个奥妙的语言.它蕴涵着华人的传统美德和思想. 它的一字一句抒发着浓厚的情感.你们别再为自己找借口,别把自己的责任退在华文的身上.最后,我想跟你们这些放弃语言文化的人,抬头挺胸地说一句话: " 我骄傲, 因为我是华人!!!!!!!!"

Ill summarize on the things that happen on these days. We were busy drawing murals beside the toilet of the new bengkel these past few days. Woots! We managed to finish it in 3 days time, with lots of teamwork. And then on Tuesday, we listened a talk about choosing streams for next year. My heart is set. Im sure Ill be taking  art stream next year ( PS: the package with Additional Mathematics, Prinsip Perakaunan and Ekonomi Asas) I vowed to do my best next year, because its all about determining my success! I've finished studying Chapter 1 of Additional Mathematics-Functions. Started a bit of Chapter 2- Quadratic Equations. Piece of shit, I dun know what the hell is all that about, but Ill try to understand by doing LOTS AND LOTS of exercises. Estimated to finish this chapter in 2 weeks time. Gambateh!

BORING! What to do besides watching TV and facebooking? My mom forced me to learn Add Maths,but I wasn't listening =D. Ill make it up to her by doing lots of exercises. What to do? What to do? And I have to keep this kind of life till the end of the holidays. Got to savour this life, or else there won't be time when school reopens. Anticipating and envisaging a great time with those 4 girls this Saturday. We're going to shop till we drop!

The exam is over for, what? 4 days already. As I heard the final voice of the invigilator, my heart stopped a beat, but surprisingly, i was not inching to shout at all. Don't ask me for a review or recap of the exams, im trying my best not to think about it. What are the days like without exams? Im trying to get used to it. Of course, the form that will decide my fate will be passed on next Tuesday. I know, when my pen fills in the form, there will be no turning back. Haven't I decided my fate all along? But still, emptiness and fear crept slowly into my mind. I know Ill have to stiffen up, I know Ill have to control my emotions. I know Ill have to work harder than ever before to make this decision. I know, i just know. But for now, please allow me a moment to be weak, to think about nothing. I can't force myself to be strong forever.....

Had a great time with my family just now. Went to a new restaurant and ate 点心.Haha, we all like hungry for ten years,15 minutes then sapu all the food clean clean.And then ate, what was it? Yeah,糯米榴莲,something like that. My mother said im eating shit ( means the durian).Then I said back: " You also eat shit loh" ( cuz she took a bite =D) Haha, then she speechless! The food is quite tasty, ESPECIALLY the durian. I love durian! And then, of course lah, PMR haven't end yet, still got 3 subjects, Maths,KH and Chinese.Got to force myself to revise that damn  KH, cuz Im in no study mood. Anyway, good luck again to all candidates of PMR. Gayao ar!!!!!!!

现在,我正处于情绪化的状态中.虽然我的不快会随时间流逝,但我的心一日一日地出现裂痕,它随时都会碎裂.有些话,我不说,不代表我接受得到.我仿佛天上的风筝,没有方向.你,又是否察觉我的存在? 你,已经不断地伤害着我.让我快乐的人是你,让我痛苦流泪的人又是你.你就快把我逼疯了.这是你要的结果吗?你满意了吗?哈?我对我自己说过,我不会再为你流泪.我必须保护自己,我必须学会隔离.我不会让你察觉我的不快乐.如果一切能重来,我不会把自己置身在着深不见底的旋涡里......

Going to revise KH in the afternoon, had a long and meaningful talk on the phone with Jasmyn this morning. The last day of  PMR is at Tuesday, and Im anticipating freedom and craziness all day. I really believe that my class will break the record this year. I think everyone will get straight As.There are 3 papers left, so Gambateh!

I was sooooooooooooooo tired today. Science and Sejarah in the same day, the jabatan must be noob to put these subjects together. Science paper 1 a bit hard, paper 2 is quite ok. And then I ate my favourite tom yam and revised sejarah. I was feeling sleepy during the sejarah exam. Im glad its over. I don't want to touch any book today. Going to be revising my kh next day. And then marked my papers in facebook. My friends provided me answers. For English, 5 questions wrong. For Geografi, 1 question wrong, which was supposed to be correct because i changed the answer == Whatever lah. For sejarah, 4 questions wrong. SVV got all correct for Sejarah, eat shit lah. And them BM, 12 questions wrong, WHAT THE FUCK! Hope my paper 2 can save me =D

I really hate myself. For my English Paper 1 I didn't think it thoroughly. Now based on someone's answers, I did wrong 5 questions. This is a really low score for me. I hate myself. For paper 2, I didn't perform my usual writing at section A, which totally sucks. As for Geografi, after seeing Siew Hwei's and Jasmyn's posts on facebook,now it really struck me that this is the last time that I will ever come in contact with Geografi. The paper is easy, but I guess I will be really missing this subject because I won't be taking it at Form 4.To think the subject that I hated most before, now I really missed it. Isn't it weird? Anyway, Science and Sejarah tomorrow. Come on! Ill just face this day with my heads up!

A bit nervous of course, I was sitting at the last place of the 1st row.The BM paper 1 totally sucks, I dun know what the hell is that all about. But as I sat for the paper 2 (essays), I thought it went quite well. I think I can really score in ringkasan and bahagian C. I suffered a slight shock when the examiner said times up when there's supposed to be 5 minutes left, caused me to yell in shock cuz I haven finished my conclusion for Bahagian C, which was the last paragraph ( Bahagian D was done ). Then the examiner realised her mistake and recovered quickly. I wrote furiously and I managed to finish in time. Hope that my paper 2 can score to make it up for paper 1. Overall, the 1st day of exam had passed and Im getting my fingers crossed for the next subjects tomorrow. I know I can score high in Paper 1 if i dun make careless mistakes, and of course I have to brush up my novel for Paper 2. Basically, Ive finished revising Geografi and I know there's an A in my bag, but anyway...

Oh yeah, there's still 8 days left to freedom! Made my science notes seriously, but im glad that it will not be a waste even after PMR coz im giving all my notes and exercise books to Kye Xin. I guess she needs them more than me. Sorry, Kye Xin. There are some that Ive done! Next day will be BM. Got my fingers crossed up and im spamming tatabahasa afterwards. Go go go! And last of all, 3S, GAMBATEH! Let us all get straight As! And Ill be dying to see PUAN Lim at the last week before the holidays!

Don't ask me if im stressed or not, cuz im really not. Yeah, 3 days left to PMR, but im ready to face it. So anyway, I had to go on with activities and chores even though exam is near. My ring finger and little finger was stretched to breaking point by my piano teacher, and what makes it worse is that I have to practice this every freaking day, so that im able to play my pieces.  = =. Damn! And then , as usual, i wiped the stairs and my brother and i teamed up with my brother to wipe the fan. My brother said later then I patah kaki and I can't sit for PMR. Choi Choi! After lunch, studied Science for a while and then online, so that's why this post is here. Last of all, good luck to everyone in PMR! Freedom is going to be super sweet, I just know it!