Time. passes. slowly. memories......

The exam is over for, what? 4 days already. As I heard the final voice of the invigilator, my heart stopped a beat, but surprisingly, i was not inching to shout at all. Don't ask me for a review or recap of the exams, im trying my best not to think about it. What are the days like without exams? Im trying to get used to it. Of course, the form that will decide my fate will be passed on next Tuesday. I know, when my pen fills in the form, there will be no turning back. Haven't I decided my fate all along? But still, emptiness and fear crept slowly into my mind. I know Ill have to stiffen up, I know Ill have to control my emotions. I know Ill have to work harder than ever before to make this decision. I know, i just know. But for now, please allow me a moment to be weak, to think about nothing. I can't force myself to be strong forever.....