Its time to grow up

It is a funny feeling.
When you hear something negative of yourself in front of your face yet accept it calmly
Im not sure whether I was calm at that moment.
Is this maturity? No answer given in my mind.

Yet I admit I was a bit frustrated.
I know its for my well being.But
When I tried to use my own ways yet someone contradicts me.
Hey it was actually you guys who said i should change a way
Hmm
I actually prefer them to be honest to me. Thank you, Shao Ren =)
But yet I know its hard for you to explain,
But wouldn't you guys tell me what is on your mind.
Im not angry, I can accept critizication
But honestly I just wish you guys would just tell me what is on your mind.
I won't blame on you guys or break down.
I just hate the feeling when you guys think that Im wrong yet you don't explain the problem to me!
Where is the rationale behind this?
Everyone has their own opinions, their own personality and their own way of thinking.
So I accept it.

Yet I blame myself too.
I know I am not a good president
I caused problems in the way/
But really I am trying a way to solve problems.
I really appreciate the help of you guys.
Honestly without you guys I don't know how to manage this society.

Hey Hao Ying,
you should try to grow up, I told myself.
I would not expect anyone to know my feelings, it is not a solution.
For long I accepted the fact that Im not important as I think.
This is not a negative thought.
This is being practical.
I won't give up though =)
We must overcome barriers in everyday life.
So that's it!
Quote of the day!



Ciaos! =D