I have not forgotten my blog
After not writing anything for a year
I think its time to reflect and regroup
And ironically im doing this at 1am
Man, so much has happened for a year
Am in year 2 of my law degree
Having exams soon and ill be in year 3 during September
I think what the past year has taught me was to embrace yourself and the future you strive to build
I always chose to live in a fast pace, i loved to learn new things that I think would be beneficial for my future
But somehow i let that all define me. Because the fear was real.
How would I define myself when i don't have the qualifications or the credentials?
Who am I then?
In a cutthroat world outside the walls of university, the competition, the intensity, the politics of working life somehow seem so real and scary.
But above all of it, who are you?
I was struggling to find that answer
But the experience of this one year has taught me to take it as it comes
Reflect my core values
And continuously explore many facets of my personality
There are things that I did not envisioned myself to do
But I did it anyway
It taught me not to let past experiences or the notion of who I taught I was to confine me in a box, because there is just so much things that I am capable of doing if i let myself fly.
I also learned not to be too hard on myself.
I used to think that i had to always be ahead of everything, which made me miss out on a lot of important things.
I should not be scared of life, but to embrace it
I should not force myself to pace, because at times although an opportunity is in front of you, does not mean that you are ready to take it.
Some people achieve success at a young age, some in their prime, some in their fifties, but i believe that every experience is their own story to tell.
But i would choose to constantly learn, so that when opportunity comes knocking, i am confident to accept it and overcome the challenges that come along the way.
I also learned to embrace loneliness, and myself.
For me at times i felt very lonely when I see someone in a relationship.
Don't get me wrong, i am certainly happy for them, but i do envy them (sometimes when i think about it a lot)
It triggered my insecurities, thinking whether my single status was because that I wasn't good enough.
After all, i am socially awkward sometimes, an extroverted introvert and seem to give the impression that I do not give anyone the time of the day (though that's untrue)
What I'm probably saying is that it really feels good to have someome who cares and love you not in the capacity of family or friends.
Its a sense of longing that I do have sometimes.
But I have good friends and family, that's for sure.
They told me that its best to enter into a relationship when you're at a comfortable space of your own, which I agree
I realised that you always have to love yourself more, and improve yourself by being the person you want to be.
Ive taken effort in dressing up so that i feel good (a huge upgrade since A levels, thank God Alicia with her impeccable taste of clothes sat next to me during my 1st year of degree)
Ive taken effort in spending quality me time with myself, whether it was reading, listening to music, or watching videos
My next goal is to be a chef in my family kitchen and maintaining the habit of exercising three times a week.
My inner reflection ends here, so glad that ive cleaned up some dust from my blog
Cheers to you all :)
I think its time to reflect and regroup
And ironically im doing this at 1am
Man, so much has happened for a year
Am in year 2 of my law degree
Having exams soon and ill be in year 3 during September
I think what the past year has taught me was to embrace yourself and the future you strive to build
I always chose to live in a fast pace, i loved to learn new things that I think would be beneficial for my future
But somehow i let that all define me. Because the fear was real.
How would I define myself when i don't have the qualifications or the credentials?
Who am I then?
In a cutthroat world outside the walls of university, the competition, the intensity, the politics of working life somehow seem so real and scary.
But above all of it, who are you?
I was struggling to find that answer
But the experience of this one year has taught me to take it as it comes
Reflect my core values
And continuously explore many facets of my personality
There are things that I did not envisioned myself to do
But I did it anyway
It taught me not to let past experiences or the notion of who I taught I was to confine me in a box, because there is just so much things that I am capable of doing if i let myself fly.
I also learned not to be too hard on myself.
I used to think that i had to always be ahead of everything, which made me miss out on a lot of important things.
I should not be scared of life, but to embrace it
I should not force myself to pace, because at times although an opportunity is in front of you, does not mean that you are ready to take it.
Some people achieve success at a young age, some in their prime, some in their fifties, but i believe that every experience is their own story to tell.
But i would choose to constantly learn, so that when opportunity comes knocking, i am confident to accept it and overcome the challenges that come along the way.
I also learned to embrace loneliness, and myself.
For me at times i felt very lonely when I see someone in a relationship.
Don't get me wrong, i am certainly happy for them, but i do envy them (sometimes when i think about it a lot)
It triggered my insecurities, thinking whether my single status was because that I wasn't good enough.
After all, i am socially awkward sometimes, an extroverted introvert and seem to give the impression that I do not give anyone the time of the day (though that's untrue)
What I'm probably saying is that it really feels good to have someome who cares and love you not in the capacity of family or friends.
Its a sense of longing that I do have sometimes.
But I have good friends and family, that's for sure.
They told me that its best to enter into a relationship when you're at a comfortable space of your own, which I agree
I realised that you always have to love yourself more, and improve yourself by being the person you want to be.
Ive taken effort in dressing up so that i feel good (a huge upgrade since A levels, thank God Alicia with her impeccable taste of clothes sat next to me during my 1st year of degree)
Ive taken effort in spending quality me time with myself, whether it was reading, listening to music, or watching videos
My next goal is to be a chef in my family kitchen and maintaining the habit of exercising three times a week.
My inner reflection ends here, so glad that ive cleaned up some dust from my blog
Cheers to you all :)
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