Life of the ordinary

I guess it was my first time Hoping that a guy would somehow mean his words We were completely strangers Yet you manage to make my heart wander round and round I didn't know why I trusted you. perhaps you brought out that part in me But yet you acted hot and cold now im at a loss My rational side tells me that you are merely just having a fun time. My emotional side tells me to keep on waiting Yet deep down I know that Im still refusing to let go with a glimmer of hope No one is to blame but myself As you said nothing happened I would have known That you don't mean it But what you said is right I need to be stronger And be myself Thank you for making me grow And hopefully by the time we meet It will provide us closure :) Embrace life, Hao Ying. Feelings are never wrong, but you just have to continue being who you are, and live life itself :)

Happy new year! First of all, im planning to make a difference for my 20 year old life And im already facing new challenges. I noticed that you really really can't put expectations on a person. Those who you think may help you, even you have known that person for a very very long time, Will not actually always be there when you need them. You have to respect that they have a life,you have to respect their wishes and their boundaries, you know that person after all. But undeniably, the feeling sometimes sucks, I will be a hypocrite to say that Im that noble and I was always there for my friends, Thats why i said that to avoid being a spiteful person you need to at least respect your friends from heart. Though it does not help when a person you barely know can give you that astounding amount of trust. They were there to support me rather than those that I expected to be. Again not to diss anyone but that is the reality that happens sometimes. But fairly you can't p...

Woots! All of us are closing the curtains for 2015 eventually It has been challenging with tears,tantrums and laughter So looking forward to 2016, 20 years of age, and a new stage in life. Resolutions! 1) earn 20k 2) meet 365 new friends 3) trip with best friends 4) Become a real apprentice 5) represent ATC's moot team 6) 2As and 2B+s for LLB exam 7) expand job opportunities Hope everyone has a good year. Look forward,never backwards!

okay my blog is going to accumulate dust if I keep leaving it blank three months a pretty eventful period of time with a lot of decisions made and a lot of mixed emotions going on university life reunion with old friends and then meeting new friends in a familiar environment studying a challenging course glad im getting more consistent than before in my studies and getting more clear regarding what I want in life relationships everything's great hwei's in uk chasing her dreams and im happy jac's in love (he better treat her right) a boy I developed a crush on now has a girlfriend lol lesson learnt in trying to take chances although I have less luck in the lover's department im happy that I have a loving family and out-of-the-world-awesome friends and I just have to move on with all the ups and downs in life. hopefully, I will meet the right person eventually life's a whirl of colours new challenges, new experiences, new relationships I think...

So the results came out 2As and 1B Satisfied I did elevate myself to a better result But somehow it was not enough for a full scholarship Thats why im working hard for my degree now And im working hard to pay for my course fees I just  hope that i can lessen my mum's burden Anyway im still me Making blunders Procastinating But ill try my best to cope with the hardships in everyday life

我近来在一个星期内竟然连续流下三次眼泪 不忿,不甘心,害怕所有的情绪都乱成一团 最近也做了一个心理测验 它说我渴望别人会明白我 我承认这个事实 因为我会正视自己 我发现我真的不会过滤当下的情绪 每次困难一来就很沮丧 过了几个小时才回到理性思考的范围 这样的我是否太冲动了? 每次莫名地寻找一个人的怀抱来慰籍自己 这样又如何独立? 朋友跟我说: 你坚强太久了 而发现我真的不知该如何定义坚强 但我敢肯定 我是撞得头破血流也不会逃避现实的人 而我该思考的是 如何真正找到内心的坚强 才能稳而不乱 才不会把自身的情绪乱乱托付给其他人 毕竟每个人都得过生活 目前的我还真的脆弱

我察觉自己潜在的情绪是蛮负面的 可以用cynical这个字来形容,既愤世嫉俗的意思 早前跟两个女人出来聚会 第一个女人跟我的困境很相似 第二个女人表面上无需负担多少,但她的独立让人心疼 我们当天在餐厅,各自拿着一杯饮料,大吐苦水 各自的生活都存在烦恼, 远比一个19岁该承受的高出许多 但我们也都接受了事实 既然是事实 就只好咬紧牙关继续撑下去 这个道理我们都知道 但撑的时候难免会觉得累 有时候莫名地难过 但我觉得最重要的是你给你自己什么定位 我很害怕迷失自己 想到变成我不喜欢的自己 就无法忍受 但我对接下来的人生还是有憧憬 如何让自己快乐时很重要的 肩膀上的担子也许会随着一份心情上的释然而变得轻一些 无论如何 我还是幸运的 因为上帝让我遇到了很多好人 愿我们一起加油 度过各自的难关